I don't really believe in doing New Years resolutions mainly because I believe that whatever was unresolved in the previous year is still gonna follow you in the new year if it was not resolved before! However I like most people do feel a sense of motivation to work on things that bother me about myself , or to make goals to work on things around me. So this year I decided to call my "New Year's Resolution's" my Necessary improvements! And this year I have more then I have ever had. I believe this is do to the fact that the last couple of months have been quite hard! And I as well have been quite hard on myself, my family, and my friends! Physically my body is doing some very weird stuff and I believe that has taken quite a toll on me! Thankfully a doctors appointment is in the near future, and hopefully I can get some answers! But with all this weird stuff going on with my body it has made me feel very low about myself! Looking in the mirror brought tears to my eyes more then a few times, and realizing even sweat pants weren't fitting me made me think who in the world could think I'm pretty! I felt unattractive in every way! So needless to say it was time for a change! It all started with a simple shopping trip with my MIL. When she visits I know a trip to Kohl's is always on our list! We both get some needed girl time and who doesn't love shopping! But lately clothes shopping was very depressing. I had actually went as far as to tell everyone I did not want any clothes for Christmas because I knew trying them on would make me feel worse about myself. But as soon as we started shopping I decided I was just going to embrace my new curvy 146lb body ( yep no lie, I no longer care there it is all out on the table!) and I was going to find clothes that fit me and worked for me! We filled up two carts full and we we're off to the dressing room! It was almost immediate I put on a size 15 juniors pants and they fit! I didn't have a muffin top and I felt sexy for the first time in a very long time! Now some things no matter the size just didn't look right which is normal for anyone, but by the time we left I really felt like I left with some staple items that made me feel really good! And then the thoughts of what else I could do to help my self feel better about myself started coming! As a Mom of 4 I tend to wear the same thing everyday. Something with elastic around my waist and in my hair and a nice bare teenage looking face, (I swear my skin thinks I'm 16 again! LOL) So I decided the only way to change that was to do stuff to help me not get bored with the way I look, boredom usually leads to me feeling not so hot about myself! So with that said here are just a few of what I feel are some of my necessary improvements:
1. No sweat pants or t-shirts unless I'm cleaning
2. Must have some type of make-up on everyday
3.Must wear a new hair style every day for the next 30 days
4. Must wear some type of jewelry everyday not including my wedding ring
5. I must be up and ready before I take my kids to school
6. I must try some type of new outfit on everyday, something I wouldn't do normally
7. And at some point in the month I want to get a total make over. hair make up the whole thing!
Some of you may be reading this and thinking man that girl is really in to herself that's all she cares about this New Year. Some of you may be thinking doesn't she know it's not about looks it's about what's inside. So to those things I say this. When you look in the mirror and get on the scale everyday and think I just can't do this anymore, I just feel like giving up. My insides felt just as ugly as I felt on the inside! This has more to do with just how I look this has to do with letting myself know I am pretty just how I am! No where in my list did you see DIET! I love food, I'm tired of pretending it's my enemy! I plan to make healthy choices but not kill myself if I choose to have ice cream! So there it is! These are just the resolutions I have for myself. I'm working on the stuff around the house and my family as we speak and I am very excited to see how they help us out and change our busy family dynamic! As far as my first set of improvements to get myself motivated and in check I plan to take a picture of myself everyday! This may be very boring but I'm hoping it motivates me! I know this wasn't a very uplifting post so here's to hoping at the end of the month I'm singing a totally different song! Happy New Year! Good luck with all of your "Necessary Improvements!"
